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Monday 02 April 2007 @ 5:09 pm
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Nao was devistated that his lover had transfered out. Broken up with him, THEN transfered out. He just couldnt believe it. They were happy werent they? They had the best times...didnt they? Nao just couldnt believe that his life was sputtering down hill once again.
"Shizumi...dying...now...this?!" He wanted to cry, he was crying, but it felt like he wasnt. He couldnt feel the streams going down his face, hitting his hands in a way that would make him want to churn once he noticed. He whimpered softly, staring at himself in the mirror. He wished to do the same as last time, when they died...
"It wont be the same...maybe I'll die this time..." he hissed in pain, gripping the handle to the knife. He wished it wasnt like this, but the fact was that his veins were going red on him; they wanted to be cut, he could almost see the blood seeping through his arm, as if it was cut already.
Nao glanced down at his arm, taking the knife. It would be deep...it would just be shallow cuts; so he told himself.
He lifted the blade, watching his arm, in almost slow motion as the blade sunk down into his vein, the one on his forearm that poked out ever so slightly. He could see the blood gushing out.
"Just a few more.." he whispered to himself, feeling it as he cut again and again, writing something, but almost nothing at the same time. It would be there forever, his love...he thought.
The red liquid went down and into the sink, swirling with the water that was on. Nao watched as he cut again, and again, making several more marks, almost not stopping, feeling like he couldnt, and feeling like he shouldnt. It was now a habit, he had grown accustomed to, and now it was his...death sentence. He knew that one day, he'd probably die by doing this...but what was the point of living anymore, if you didnt have a lover?
He continued, before dropping the blade, it swishing till it stopped in the middle of the sink, right above the plug. His almost emotionaless eyes glanced over at the mirror, moving his hand up to his face to smear what blood was on his fingers, onto his cheeks.
"I'm a mess..." he said softly, eyes closing as he finally went to wrap them up, the gauze that he soon had wrapped around, not wasting any time to fill up with blood. "I'll never love again...." he told himself, hoping that in his heart, it was true....maybe. He wished it, but he knew he'd love again...it was only time.
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Tuesday 27 March 2007 @ 4:33 pm
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He got hit...
by a fucking car!!!
he's dead now...
god fucking damnit, i sat in that hospital for...fucking 2 days, just for them to tell me my friend is dead?! what the hell kind of doctors does this place have?!
I HATE THIS PLACE, I HATE MY LIFE!!!
I havnt seen Kai in so long, i feel like im going to crack
i know im going to do something stupid...stupid....god fucking damnit
....life fucking sucks
why should i live anymore? there's no reason right? i have no love anymore, he's probably found someone else...all of my friends are dying on me...that's fucking three!!!! THREE FUCKING PEOPLE...
Shizumi.....i miss you lots...
i'll come visit you soon....*smile* maybe my death will...freeze my heart...
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Saturday 17 February 2007 @ 7:09 pm
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Falling on my butt...ow
that really hurts after a while (´┏O┓｀)
*pout*
so...
i dont know anymore
i miss him, and im willing to wait
but it hurts
i guess im just trying to get back out there, do things by myself
i know i've changed...but...
hmm
(´ ┏__┓｀) Shoge!
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| MOD POST |
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Monday 20 November 2006 @ 10:07 pm
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please read this
with all of the shit happening at Hanayami, im officially making this All Boys, no Girls. I'm serious.
It's making me sick seeing the girls over at Hanayami, and sad at the very same. Please DO NOT ASK ME to make a girl; there will be none in staff...ever.
I'm sorry for this, but it's something I must do. It's gonna make me throw up over at Hanayami, and it sucks, because I cant transfer out all my characters, because of Shou and Die; though I may say, I dont mind about them.
But yes.
No girls, alowed.
And. Can you people suggest something to make this a little better? I've said something about a time frame, so nothing over laps like it has been...(inmine) and yea. Would you like to try that atleast for a little bit? My friend suggested a week we try?
Please People, I need help ;-;
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| [OOC] I need help |
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Saturday 11 November 2006 @ 7:52 pm
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can someone help me make a Layout?
i really dont know how...and it's for something on LJ
pwease?
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Sunday 05 November 2006 @ 10:53 pm
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new students welcome welcome!!!
hope you guys have a fun time here, all of the drama may get to you after a while, but it will go away ;-;
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Tuesday 31 October 2006 @ 7:24 pm
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do i always end up in a bad mood?
my fucking sister just yelled at me, and i really dont feel leaving the house right now
make up is still on, and i dont feel like taking it off, im just really fucking pissy
i hate her, and i wish she dies
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Monday 30 October 2006 @ 10:52 pm
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THIER FINALLY GONE
thank god ;-;
Yuuto-kun, how is Nagi doing? I heard that his brother had come
i hope they arnt fighting or anything, brothers always tend to *sigh* it's a shame....
*giggles*
Kai-kun, kisses to you *smile* dress up for halloween!!
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